Goodbyes

Everyone hates goodbyes. However, after a week of goodbyes, I find myself a little emotionally drained but so incredibly blessed. You see, we don’t shed a tear for things we won’t miss. We don’t get a lump in our throat when we leave people that aren’t meaningful. We don’t pray for those that don’t cross our minds.

I am so grateful that I have been lavished with a series of goodbye meals, shared with friends who I love and I know love me and my family. I have gotten to have moments that I will cherish for much longer than this current adventure will last. They have many forms that are so reflective of the relationships. Tearful kisses from my Mama T., sweet encouraging words from family, FaceTime pep talks and silliness from grown children, heartfelt texts and calls, sweet gifts for me and my future Malawian friends, hugs that last just a little longer to make up for the time until the next one, and prayers in small and big circles. I am so thankful for the people in my life and feel so honored to be sent off into the world with that kind of support. I will miss you all ( and the chips, queso, pizza, coffee, etc. that go with so many of you).

I am currently sitting in Frankfurt, Germany enjoying internet and electricity. I am hopeful I will continue to have ways in which to communicate with family and friends. I do hate that I will miss the fall fun of football games and pumpkin lattes, but really what I most regret is not being there to hear about the start of school reports, the dorm room set ups, the moves into new homes, the small group studies, and just living life in my community. Again, I feel so incredibly blessed that I have a tribe that I hate to leave and not one that I am am looking to run away from.

Additionally, God is present all around me from the beginning. The suitcases were within the weight range but completely maxed out. My first flight seat buddy was small and quiet. I also was able to sleep well for the nights prior to my leaving and have not had any significant anxiety. Your prayers are felt and the God is continually reminding me of His sovereignty and affection for me. My heart is overflowing so much that it spills over in tears that dot my keyboard.

Maybe I don’t hate goodbyes........but I sure will be ready for hellos in 3 months!!!